As I stand at the literal and figurative fork in the road that is my life, I’m truly pondering what is about to happen to me. I am at a crossroads.
I am shaken to my core at the decision that I have to make and I’ve been trying to avoid making the decision for a long time. It’s gotten to the point where the universe is literally forcing me to make decisions, which is why my car has now broken down at a crossroad. I knew I should have booked that brake repair service but my mind has been too consumed with heartache to be able to function properly. Heartache really can cloud your thought process and make it hard to do day-to-day tasks. I never really knew that was the case but that’s because I had never felt true heartache before. It’s crazy how the inner workings of our minds really can impact our bodies. I feel my emotions so deeply and all throughout my body. It is wild to think how much control our minds actually have.
Anyway, I better work through my heartache (at least for right now) so that I can book a log book service appointment. In the Raceview area, we’re not spoiled for choice in terms of mechanics which is actually a good thing. This mechanic is known to be reliable and because there’s no one else to choose from, I don’t have to put any brain power into my decision-making. Thank goodness, because my brain power is working at about 10% at the moment. I feel physically ill. I feel like I’m going to vomit because of the decisions I need to make. Everything about this sucks and I just want to curl up into a ball and cry for hours. I will barely be able to make it to my log book service at this rate. I just can’t function.